everyday's a first...

so today was the first time i ever quit a job.

i don't know how i feel about it yet. granted, it definitely was NOT a good fit for me (or for my employer, apparently), but i still feel like i disappointed someone (my employer, myself, who knows?). because even while i felt that my employer was rude or hypocritical or inconsiderate (and i do think all of those things), at the same time [i'm guessing] she thought i was...incompetent?, disrespecting of her practice, and that i handled the situation poorly.

do i feel like i could have handled our...confrontation...better? don't we all, in retrospect, feel like we could have handled uncomfortable situations differently? i can see how she would have preferred i respond to her in another way, but i was doing what was suitable for me at the time. self-preservation, anyone? furthermore, i feel like, as an employer and a professional, she SHOULD have handled the situation much better from her end. she should have respected me more, made less assumptions, and alloted time for training.

so either way, i should be really happy that i'm no longer there. but i still feel like i've done something wrong.

i've never quit a job before. i've never been ill-received by an employer. i've never really had an employer be happy to see me go.

i guess there's a first for everything!

eh. i'll get over it.

v.i.n.t.a.g.e.

disclaimer: this is gonna be short, and may be just a little shallow. kinda like me! ha! (i'm joking)

so i got a pedicure this passed week for the first time since thailand. it's a nondescript place on broadway owned by this middle-aged asian woman who i just love to pieces. she smells like my grandmother. i don't know if it's her lotion or her lipstick or something, but it's uncanny.

anyway, my pedicure. i was choosing my color and kept hearing marj, linea and kendra (of the famous new zealand brown-crowd) saying that i need to be more adventurous. apparently, i never stray too far from beige or light pink.

so this time i chose red. "golden ruby" to be exact.

and can i just say that i LOVE my red toenails? everytime i look at my feet they cheer me up. is that why those beautiful women of the vintage era always wore red nail polish and red lipstick?

it's really the most amazing pick-me-up.

go and paint the world red.

Stepping onto my soapbox as we speak

Today I start my first ever legal internship at the Meiklejohn Civil Liberties Institute in Berkeley. The plus? At least it'll only take me about half the time to get there as it takes me to get to USF. The minus? It's a new job.

Wish me luck! I'll continue this post tonight to update on how the day went.

P.S. Welcome back B!

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Alright, so day 1 down...the entire summer to go! I guess I can say that I like what I'm going to be doing this summer. Right now, Ann (our director) has me working on a flyer for the US Social Forum happening in Atlanta at the end of June (I think). This means that I've been poring over the UN Convention for the Elimination of All Forms of Racial Discrimination, the first mandatory report the US submitted on this treaty (although the US actually combined what was supposed to be the first 3 reports into the first 1 they submitted, and did so extremely late), the UN Committee's conclusions and recommendations to this report (in which the UN requested that the US submit its 4th and 5th reports by 2003 --which the US did not do), and the US 4th, 5th, and 6th report (again, combined into 1) submitted in April of this year. My job is to look over the changes - if any - that the US made in accordance with the UN's conclusions and recommendations, and any changes they did not make that they should have, paying particular attention to "Katrina" and Guantanamo Bay incidences. And I work with a really great girl from U of O that knows some people I knew in high school. Such a small world sometimes. All in all, pretty interesting stuff.

I celebrated by going to Bay Street and buying 2 pairs of work-pants. Fun.